Monday, May 26, 2008

Heartache...

This is something I haven't wanted to tackle on the blog, but I know there are those of you out there that care and so I am going to try...
Jim's mom is not doing well. She is failing every day in small ways and it is becoming more evident that the end is very near for her. Our hearts are aching, but there is a part of us that wants to let go too.
Jim is losing his mom, I am losing a very special mother in law and my children are losing a grandma that loves them dearly. She still gets a grin on her face when Carsten comes in the room. The other day Carsten would keep going over to her bed and putting his hand in hers... breaks your heart, but warms it as well.
Not sure how to put in words the tears streaming down our faces...

20 comments:

Andrea said...

I had been thinking about her for a while and wondered how things were going. Our hearts ache with yours - we know what it is like to lose a dear mother. Benjamin never knew his grandma and this makes us especially sad. Hang in there and remember that our thoughts are with you!
lv, Andrea, Russell, & Benjamin

Growininwillows said...

Thanks for leaving the message about Mom. I am crying as I write - I held my tears in all the calls today, but this message made me cry. I know many will read this and I am sure they are glad for the update.

I too have wanted to blog about it, and am glad you have. Thanks and see you soon!

SoozeSchmooze said...

Thanks Dana I am glad you let us know how things are going. I did speak with Alicia about her a week ago and she said the end is very near. I am planning a trip up to Oregon the first week of June. I plan to stop in to visit at their home. I will be in touch! My heart is aching too..as you know that I love each member of that very special family of Hamiltons..takes special parents to create such wonderful and special kids...and Jim, Alicia, and Christina are just the very best in my opinion!!! I have always felt a special connection to Paula and Bob too! My heart and thoughts are definitely with all of you each day!! much love Susie

prrrof said...

I sometimes struggle to figure out why this kind of pain is part of life too. Thanks for saying something--I know it's hard, but do know that there are so many of us out here wishing we could take one small corner of it from you. We can't, but we're here....

hugs.

Diane said...

Thanks so much, Dana, for putting that little message on your Blog about Paula. I know it was hard to write. We think of her & all of you as we travel. It's so good that you've lived close these last 2 years.
Love, Aunt Diane

Sandra Ramey said...

Dear Dana and Jim,
We have never met your mom, Jim, but I can imagine she is a special person just knowing you Jim and Alicia. Any loss is hard as I have recently lost my brother. God is the Comfort for us all and I appreciate that so much! We are thinking of you and here for you to lean on.
Lovingly, Sandra and Dave

Our Family said...

Your family is in our thoughts and prayers during this time. Although we have never met your mom, Jim, we know she is a special lady because you are a special person yourself. My heart aches for what you are going through. Just keep strong as a little family unit and remember all the good memories that you have had these past years especially being up in Oregon close to her. That was God's will that you were called to move up there. All our best. Erik and Kristen:)

alleykat said...

Sorry to hear that Jim. I haven't gone that road yet, loosing a close loved one. These are the things that can bring us closer to the Heart of God if we let it. It's good you are close by.

Gina said...

I feel that the words DITTO seem so small but others have expressed far better than I can. Your family is a very special and dear one to me and I wish I could somehow make this a bit easier for you. Please know that we are sending our love your way and that our hearts and prayers are with all of you. Please give my love to Bob and Paula. Even is she doesn't seem to understand she knows you all are there in some way and knows how much you love her. Love Gina

alleykat said...

close by to your mom that is ;)

Crazy Colsons said...

Jim & Dana,
Think about you a lot. I have had
your phone # by my phone for 2 months and have not called. Its not a bad thing to be brokenhearted we have found out. We are missing our Daughter and now son and Elona is living in Idaho. It helps us be very soft but still it is very sad for you both and kids. We will shed tears with you. Love you all. Mike & Cheri

Deb said...

Jim and Dana,
We are so sorry for this time of sorrow that you are going through. We are thinking of you!!!!
Love, Jon and Deb G

Crazy Colsons said...

Had to leave another blog. Sorry, but it sounded soooo incensitive when I read it. Did not mean to compare your mom to our kids going away to school. I have tears writing this for you both. Don't mean to discount your pain with our temporary heartaches. I remember when someone compared our sons death with their cats death and I thought, get real. You appearantly have never felt REAL heartache. So sorry for sounding incensitive, we really DO understand and are sad with you. Your mom is a sweety.
Cheri and Mike

Dim and Jana said...

Thank you for all your kind comments... I know there are many of you out there that have been through this... Thank you for thinking of us!

Darin, Jean, Samson & Sydney said...

Dear Jim & Dana - we are certainly thinking of all of you. Your Mom and Dad are so dear to me, I know meeting them was not a coincidence.

Love and Care to all of you,

Jean

Alison said...

Jim and Dana,

It brought tears and memories back to me reading your post tonight. Like Andrea mentioned, we lost our dear mother in law over three years ago now. It is so hard to let them go but very hard to see them lingering too. It is difficult to put it into words... Maybe it helps in a small measure to know that we are thinking of you and your sweet little family.

rae ann said...

this has been a really tough year and a half for the H family (and all of the others that that family encompasses). i can't imagine what you guys are having to deal with right now.

you're right- there are no words.

we love you.

Unknown said...

We are thinking of you. We know how hard this is. My mom is the only parent David and I have left. (Although we fortunately have a step-mother and step-dad). I know how much we feel we still need our parents even though we are adults now. The good memories you have saved up will get you through. As others have said, I haven't met your mom Jim, but she raised some wonderful kids, and so I know she must be special.

Anonymous said...

Jim, Dana and dear boys,
We are thinking of you and your sad days. Remember the Lord is over all. He will comfort you and your family. Love and hugs,
California Taylors
xo

Anonymous said...

PS.....Happy birthday to half of your family! *wink*
I had my turn at convention, Dana! Now it's almost your turn in a few days.
:) 33 years young we are! :)))))